I Though I Was Over This
March 12, 2008 by Jacqueline L. Jones
I’m reading a book to review right now, and I don’t know how I’m going to get through it. The writer is so honest, and I can relate to her struggles so well. I had to put the book down in the middle of the first chapter and just breath.
The frightening part about all this is I thought I had forgiven the people who misjudged me during the worst of my illness. Ignoring the way you feel is not the same thing as forgiving. I’ve really had to pray today to ask God to help me forgive a lot of people–medical professionals, relatives, people in my community, former employers, ex-husbands, former in-laws, former church members, people I thought were my friends.
When I think about what innocent Jesus endured on the cross for my sins and the sins of the world, I realize I have no right to complain. He didn’t deserve it either, yet He asked God the Father to forgive the ignorance of His accusers. How can I do less?
[...] In a recent post, I lamented the fact that so many people had misunderstood me at the height of my illness. I overlooked the fact that the pain these people caused led me to seek answers, which improved my research skills and helped me realize I could use my writing skills to share what I learned with others. [...]